#this is why ppl dont rly like me
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another batch of MCs as thanks for drawing clora🥹💖💖 once i start working on something i cant rest until i get it done so ive legit been working on these nonstop for the past 2 days from when i wake up till i go to bed.......i can finally rest 🧎♀️........THANK YALL AGAIN💖💖💖🙏🙏🙏 MC's in order: @moonstruckmoony @syaolaurant @dwightschrute11 @boxdstars @versailles-black @ccelicaa @ethniee @wrongcog @ashiori-chan @tamayula-hl @celestinawarlock @serpensortiamaxima @silvyadrakkon @jadepalaceyaya @zorro-d-t
#and this still isnt even everyone thats drawn clora but even if i never get around to drawing something for u KNOW THAT I APPRECIATE IT🙏🙏#I wish i could draw something in return for everyone who draws something for me but i also dont want ppl to think its a guaranteed thing#i used yalls mc's as paint practice too and omg idk why i did this to myself i bit off way more than i could chew#next time defs just sticking to flat colours and simple shading LMAO#at least ive gotten faster tho i think so it WAS good practice🥰 and its my fault anyway i didnt HAVE to rush and finish these#but it felt so long overdue that i just rly wanted them done#SO HOPE YALL LIKE I TRIED TO MAKE THEM ALL EQUAL WITH THE AMOUNT OF EFFORT#choccyart
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ppl who follow me are tired of me saying this, but if i could address the aa fandom directly... i rly would just ask that people like, stop being mean about dd and soj. like thats all i want.
im not even IN the fandom anymore, so i have no reach. i draw fanart and make my little ship posts but thats all. and thats bc the wider fandom ... is so fucking mean sometimes. omg. like its just not fun!!
but really, specifically, its about the dd and soj thing. the "play ace attorney we have so many games and [MOST OF THEM] are good!" thing. like, its fine if you dont LIKE dd and soj, obviously!! im not saying you HAVE to!
but "i dont like these games" and "these games are objectively bad and no one likes them" are entirely different statements.
plenty of people like dd and soj, even have them as their favorite games. i know this bc my soj fanart gets notes 😭 i have ppl in my tags excited and happy when i draw dhurke and datz. bc we like these characters!! and like to think about them and the story they come from!
...just bc YOU dont like soj, doesnt mean a lot of ppl dont like soj! so i really dont understand the drive to constantly talk down and insult these games?! like ... why be negative. u could be nicer. its possible and easy and then doesnt drive ppl away from the fandom bc their favorite games are being trashtalked all the time.
a lot of ppl find the space family dd interesting! they LIKE the phantom and his concept as a character! they LIKE soj and all of the political settings! it doesnt rly matter that they are, by and large, A Little Flop, bc people still LIKE them and like making content for them and thinking abt them and playing in the space and...!! like. why hate that? why constantly put us down for enjoying smth you didnt?
just dont need to constantly make slights at how "bad" and supposedly unenjoyable dd and soj are. cus not only is it mean, and makes the fandom hostile, but its literally untrue. i dont even consider myself in the fandom anymore bc all the fun is taken out of it when i have to brace myself for shitty comments like this whenever i read a post abt the series!
and i rly wish i could just Not Care what other ppl say. a lot of my friends dont care. but soj is like.....ive spent the past 5 years loving that stupid ass mediocre game. like its deeply important to me. and i just feel like a lot of ppl would have some fun with it if they werent constantly told how bad and skippable it is. im sure dd fans feel the same way.
its very cliquey. its very "the popular opinion is correct and if you dont agree, you dont get to play with us". it just sucksssss
#ace attorney#spirit of justice#dual destinies#like again im sure this will flop too#but if i can at least convince One Person to be a little nicer abt these games#OR JUST. NEUTRAL? LIKE JUST DONT BE MEAN THTS ALL I ASK#then ill be happy#its all crazy cus to me ace attorney is a very unserious mediocre series#the first game is tight but even then most ppl hate 1-3 or 1-5 and think theyre boring#so idk why dd and soj are the black sheep when their crimes are NOT unique to their games lol#just uplift the entire series! its easy!#Idk or maybe im the crazy one.#i wouldnt rly know how the wider fandom is cus again im not IN it cus you guys are mean af sometimes!!!!#i sit in my little bubble of ppl who appreciate datz are'bal Amen!
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OOH YEAH BABY ITS THE SURGERY EPISODE BABY!!! ME AND THE HOMIES NEED SOME NEW FACES FOR OUR NEW PLAN, AND WHO BETTER TO GET THE JOB DONE THAN THE TWO MOST EVIL PEOPLE WE'VE EVER HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF HAVING OUR LIVES VIOLATED BY? I MEAN IT WOULD BE FUNNY. IT WOULD BE FUNNY.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw blood#cw gore#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#vex waylin#viv waylin#MY FAVORIT EP!! HAVNT SEEN IT IN FOREVER THO BC WELL. IM BUSY. SO BEAR W ME IM RUNNIN OFF ALOTTA MEMORY FUMES#ALSO EDIT BC FUUUCK I HADMORE TAGS BUT TUMBLR FUCKEN ATE EM. OH WELL. MY DMS R OPEN IF U WANNA UNLOCK RAMBLES.#I LOVE THE WAYLIN TWINS SSSOO FUCKING MUCH IM SO!!! CURIOUS ABOUT THEM!!! WHO WERE THEY WHEN THEY WERE HUMAN? HOW LONGVE THEY BEEN ARND?#I LOVE IT WHEN PPL SAY ITS LIKE THESE TWO WERE MADE FOR MMEE BC YES!! YES!! ITS EVERYTHING I COULD EVER WANT FROMA CHARACTER!!!#I LOVE THEIR RED WHITE N BLACK COLOR SCHEME. I LOVE HOW THEYRE BOTH SO INTELLIGENT AND GENIUS N YET THEYRE DUMB AS FUUUUCK#COOOMICAL SUPER VILLAINS. OOH ILL GET YOU NEXT TIME SHAMIA SHAMAI!!! HOW DARE YOU FOIL MY PLAN!! MY PLANS OF MUTILATING AWAKE N ALIVE PPL#COMICAL AND YET. GENUINELY HORRIFYING. VIV CAN MAKE UR BONES EXPLODE JUST BY THINKING ABOUT IT. VEX CAN BECOME SOUP#WHY DONT WE TALK ABOUT THAT MORE? THE TURNING INTO RED MEAT SLIME?? METAL AS FUUUCK. I ALSO LOVE HOW SCARED THEY GOT SO QUICKLY#THIS LIL FUCKEN RRRRRAT COMES IN. AND WELL. HES JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. WE FUCK HIM UP N TOSS HIM INTO THE SUN N LET HIM BURN#SURE HE HAD ONE MORE TRICK OF REBELLION UP HIS SLEEVE BUT THE SUN HAS TAKEN HIM NOW. ITS FINE. WE'RE FINE. HEY IS THERE SMTH IN THE CEILING#OHHH WE KILLED HIM ONCE N HE CAME BACK. WE KILLED HIM AGAIN N TOOK HIM APART BUT THEN HES BACK?? HE GETS AWAY AND THEN. COMES BACK. AGAIN.#WE CANT GET RID OF HIM. THAT FOUL SHAMIA SHAMAI. A MOUSE IN OUR KITCHEN. FUUUUCK HES GONNA SPREAD DISEASE! KILL IT! KILL IT!! AAAUUGH FUCK!#I LOVE THAT THE WAYLIN TWINS AGREED TO HELP THE BLONDE TWINS MOSTLY ON THE BASIS OF 'IT WOULD BE FUNNY' BUT ALSO#OOHHH WE ARE SO CLOSE TO REACHING SOMETHING TO MAKE HIM NNEEVER FUCK WITH US AGAIN. HIS ILLUSIONS WILL HAUNT US NO LONGER#THEY WERE SSSOOO PARANOID W ALL THE CAMERAS AND BOMBING THEIR OWN LAB AND RUNNING AND RUNNING AND GETTING AWWAY FROM THIS FUCKEN! MOUSE!!!!#OHHHH I THINK IM RUNNIN OUTA ROOM so ill talk about da art real quick.BEEN WORKIN ON THIS FOR A WHIIILE.ALOTTA THESE were started when the#ep came out.so OLD!! BUT DONE!!and im very very happy w my colors n gore n EXPRESSIONS!! the top right corner comic keeps making me chuckle#I ALSO rly love the lil convo between arthur n viv.theyre SO CUTE TOGETHERR they should go ona museum date together or somethin#they need more time to just talk abt da World together.ALSO CAN I BE PETTY.I MADE ARTHUR UGLY CORRECT-STYLE#THESE BOYS KNOW NOTHING OF UGLY.I MADE THE VAMPIRIC FLESH EVOLVE N ROT N BLOSSOM AND THERE IS SQUIRMING WITHIN THE TENEBRAE#UHHH IEAH THIS GUY W A ROTTED N DISTORTED FACE WALKS INTO MY BIKE STORE IEAH IM SCREAAAMIN LIKE WADDA HELL!! MONSTOR!!!
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since we were talking about f.igaro last night i now pose another question to you guys .. what is the scariest d.isney movie you've ever seen and why is it p.inocchio bc-
#⊱✿⊰ ┊ ˢʰᵉ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ⁱˢ ᵃ ᶠᵘⁿⁿʸ ᵍⁱʳˡ ( ooc )#[ I WAS AFRAID TO DO ANYTHING BAD#BC OF THAT MOVIE#I ALSO DON'T TRUST PPL W/ THE NAME#HONEST J.OHN BC#LIKE#DUDE THAT DOESNT SOUND HONEST#that and d.umbo scared me so so bad#i dont think i#ever asked this question here#but in case i did u can answer w/ something different FXDKJKDF#there are a lot of scary films out there#i was scared of 101 d.almations too bc#of how mean they were to the nanny#when they took the dogs yk#that rly rly used to upset me#and recently i rewatched and it UPSET ME ALL OVER AGAIN#WHY ARE THEY SO MEAN TO HER LIKE THAT HOLY CRAP
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NSH would be like a motorcyclist i feel, bro just gives off those vibes
My brain is blanking alot these days bUT hear me out, the iterators would look rly good in like respective army fits
Like think about it, moon in a marine fit
SRS in a police vest fit
Also I've personally renamed the glowweed to glasglow(i know its a city name somewhere but damn it sounds fitting)
I love glasglows did i ever mention that mMMM i love 70% air green yellow glowy bubbles from the HIT GAME RAINWORL
#this is what drinking milo for the whole day will do to you#i shld actually like go eat smth#go have a life#i dont have a life#yall actually dont know that im wack as fuck#probably best if i kept it that way#mm yea renamed it to glasglow#we can have a friendly fight abt it if anyone rly wants to throttle me for doing that#ppl are scary#ive forgotten how to draw thats why im spouting nonsense#but yea i think putting them in vests and authority clothes would be so sexy#yep im gonna go eat smth other than milo
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just bc im a lesbian doesnt mean tht i wont at times become deeply entranced with the beauty of male actor or character. it just means i wld rather be locked in a room with a man with a knife than do anything romantic or sexual with one
#NO OFFENCE TO MEN AS PEOPLE THAT EXIST. but also i shldnt have to say tht after saying this yk#also b4 u say ooh ur aro tho why do u need to specifcy u wldnt do anything romantic w a man when i wldnt with a woman either#i am actually pretty romance favorable. like i would be in a romantic relationship with a woman if it wldnt ruin my life#with how it is rn . i think i like and want all the parts tht make up a romantic relationship i just dont experince romantic attraction#but anyway i was here to talk abt my sexuality not my romantic orientation#this post was originally like 'im remembering why there was such a huge overlap with my og major starkid hyperfixation#and me identifing as bisexual' but the thing is is the main main guy from starkid i remember being attracted too#was infact . rob. and thats aged badly bc of it being revealed that hes a fucking creep since then#but also just now not that we should ignore tht but regardless of that i just. dont see it at all#maybe it is that news subconsiously turning me off him but i really dont see that much what i liked abt his appearance#but who rly inspired this post to me is infact . jeff blim ? which is suprising just from the fact tht i dont ever remember#having tht big of a crush on him with that og starkid hyperfixation. but well he is a very beautiful man . giggling a little bit. sorry .#also becoming a bit obsessed with joey richter but thts just standard lesbian obssesion with a weird little man#not attractive to me im just obssesed with him. hi#also posting this now so when i finally watch the fnaf movie i can rb it abt josh hutcherson#anyway. does anyone read these tags do these long rants i go on like. turn ppl off of my posts. sometimes i wonder#flappy rambles
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#he screen recorded me in sexy facetime without asking+ i showed my face really clearly#he mentioned it after and i made him delete it#and he apologised and all of that but like why would u even DO THATTT#guys if u think u see my paranoia on this blog..... he sees it way more in real conversation😭 he knows im v paranoid#so like what the fuckkkkkkk#the thing is i screen recorded him BUT he literally told me fo#/ suggested it. i never told him to sr me😭 and even thi he apologised a lot i still feel betrayed and sad and frustrated#ive previously told him not to ss or sr me when i look bad (normal facetimes) so like.... why would he sr during sexy time hellooooo#i asked + he said cuz he thought it was different. plus he wasnt keeping it a secret from me i gueeessssss#but he also only mentioned it cuz i happened to ask randomly idk what rly prompted it#anyway. dont be mean to me guys if anyones reading thisssss hes a lovely jubbly guy and i dont accept slander of my loves ones#ppl do things that r wrong but it doesnt make them bad right? i do things all the time
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the thing that gets me abt religious ppl is they'll demand u respect their religion & that religion hating your existence but they won't respect ur right to be like yea my belief says god isn't real so thats a dumb reason for hating other people or ye ok then ur god is homophobic thats kinda shitty they go APESHIT like. it goes both ways? like they can say i hate gay ppl bc of my religion but when a gay person says well i dont respect that religion bc it doesnt respect me its ww3. I'm not walking on eggshells for people who are too quick to condemn me to hell
#likeeee. ppl have been homophobic to me bc 'their religion condemns it' but i cant be like ok well then fuck ur religion?#but they can say okay fuck you and be hateful and intolerant like that?#why do i tolerate u if u wont tolerate me? im just#like to me as an atheist/agnostic im like. hearing that something i dont even think is real is why u hate me as a person is so insane#like 'its unnatural and wrong bc my religion says so' like ok. why does that have to affect me as someone who doesnt follow said religion#jusr wish more religious ppl were as understanding and non judgemental as they claim they are??#like ur gna say that shit to me? u think god likes that ur speaking for him rn? u rly see urself on the same level as god?#u think YOU can judge others? embarrassing#*smacks own ass* this baby can fit so much religious trauma#i love religion sm for some ppl but then other aspects of it im like why cant yall just modify this as society progresses#them books old as hell them writers didn't even know electricity but ur talking their word abt an entire group of ppl being wrong & evil?#i like when religious ppl apply the teachings to modern society & take into account how shit has changed#when ppl take the good parts of religion and focus on them and bring that religious warmth w them where they go is so nice#(my friends<333)#like they live by them teachings and are good ppl but dc abt divorce or abortion or gays bc society has changed & ppl ultimately deserve#control of their own bodies and shouldnt have to be trapped in bad partnerships#& girls who love other women and dont agree w the typical 'woman serve men' that a lot of religious old folk got goin on#if u can modify some stuff in the religious books whats stopping u extending that grace to literal people just being who they are
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Why is Junpei Iori so cute 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I can't take it anymore 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I want to vacuum seal him 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 he's SO cute omg.. I love him sm I love his character development I love him
#persona 3#junpei iori#idk how ppl hate him even after finishing p3#like yeah at the beginning he ws a weirdo so I get why ppl didnt like him at first but by the end of the game hes rly a much better person#and some ppl hated him for showing emotions?? like? what?#<-Yukari ws a huge victim of that too 💔 yukari and junpei haters dni dont even breathe the same air as me bro#theyre human!! ofc they're going to express emotions!!
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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thinking abt 10 and 14
#please immliterally going to die#characters of all time. same guy but not the same guy. they're even gay#AND ONLY 3 WEEKS TIL I SEE 15 OH MY GOFFDIDJDFIFJDJFJDNFNDN#HDHHDFUDHFUDJJFJDDJ#dude we are so fucking BACKKKKK#it's so hard coz i rly liked 13s era too at the time but in retrospect i get why ppl dont#but it feels like I'm betraying her when im like ughh so glad dr who is good again#coz i love herrr...but im so glad dr who is good again.#WHILE GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#doctor who#10th doctor#14th doctor#dw text#yes it's 3.15 in the morning leave me alone. araf and i had like a 3 hr meltdown abt 10 and 14 we're going thru a lot
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[shakes myself by the shoulders] YOU'D HAVE TO STOP THE WORLD JUST TO STOP THE FEELING!!!!!!!!
#wails. i want hrt without the mortifying ordeal of outing myself to everyone#i cant have that of course but i wish#imagine if i could just disappear for a year or two to get into therapy and start het#hrt. that would be great#im dreading the waitlist time i'll get to hear from the other therapist i havent yet recontacted#ive also not replied to the one therapist that got back to me. oops#i mean tbf thats a therapist he probably gets mails like that that dont go anywhere all the time lol#and also knows ppl hesitate a lot#cas.txt#the guy with scared of everything disorder: goddd i wish i could just send this email why am i afraid#cw caps#im just wasting time by not contacting a therapist. i wont stop wanting hrt. be for real man#like i sit around and i go “hm but am i rly trans? do i rly want hrt?” and then im like yeah.#i look in the mirror and go. yeah.#jfc just START THE FUCKING PROCESS OF GETTING THERE ALREADY!!!! YOU HAVE TO WAIT AT LEAST 1.5 YEARS TO EVEN GET INTO THERAPY#JUST START THE FUCKING THINGGG
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its 2024 and people still dont get sugurus character at all
#everytime someone on tiktok says he hates jujutsu high or like gojo and shoko my eye twitches#literally his entire goal is for the sake of sorcerers.. his cruelty lies in how he subscribes to the idea of collective punishment#but that aside so say hes some conniving dictator for no reason is so crazy like my brother in islam the reason why he went down this path#was bc of how much he wanted to find meaning and a set of principles that will make life meaningful for him#it was a bad ideology for sure. but to negate the logic behind it is doing sugurus character such a disservice lol#bc idk to me hes a villain u rly feel for. and if u pretend like he has no love for his once peers that just kind of diminishes#the weight of his defection and then later on his crimes#anyway sorry for the yap session i had to defend my princess#one last tangent: these same ppl dont understand miminana at all either#then again we r talking abt the ppl who think miminana worked w kenjaku(??) when its literally canon the reason they died was cuz they#went to sukuna for help just so kenjaku could be eliminated#anyway whatever whatever
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having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?
#txt#audhd tag#just venting a little#its crazy because ppl around me are like I understand your limitations However why dont you-#So you dont understand my limitations?#like okay yeah i understand that it must be Weird for people that are not Inside my brain and hard to understand that i PHYSICALLY CANNOT>#do things that they dont even think about. alright! but to sit and tell me Yeah we get it! but then try to either fix it or >#> come up w a New Incredible Way To Fix Me as if half of what i talk abt w my therapist isnt Exactly This#like yeah i dont fucking like it either. i wish i could do shit like other ppl do. i wish i could remember things.#i wish i didnt feel exhausted all the time i wish simply leaving my bed wasnt the most difficult task every single morning#but it pisses me OFF when people try to talk me through these Limitations i have that They Understand<3 like. can you be accommodating or no#one of my closest friends and oldest friends since i was like 5 had her bday on friday and she ljterally messaged me like#Hi we r having something w my family but theyre rly loud and extremist on the right wing side and i barely wanna be here u dont have 2 come>#> but i wanted to invite u anyway so u dont think ur being left out! and i was like Yayy nice thank u bc lbr i probably wouldnt go anyway.#and she KNOWS that. and she literally was talking to me like she alwahs does and That felt accommodating and understanding and i felt loved#cut to my mom last night trying to make me feel guilty for not going because Shes my friend and i should have gone anyway.#i told her off and she backtracked but thats still innmy head like. that shit is so irritating#okay sorry vent over im just aboht to get my period so this is making me sick#want to yell into the void and forget about it. Hits post
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i wish i wasnt so nervous and anxious about ppl trying to meet me and i wish i could match their energy at all times
#since school ppl have always invited me out and tried befriend me but i was like omggg nooooo you will hate me!!! so i just pushed ppl away#and thats how i ended up with 1 friend#and now as an adult i kinda still get lucky that some ppl still try to befriend me and seem eager to talk to me and go out of their way to#do so#and i understand now that they like me bc i AM cool and i am funny and nice to talk to but i still get anxious about having to do more than#just small talk and actually invite them to hang out and allow them to know me and ill know them too...#its just too nerve wrecking and i get flustered and i rly dont know why
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ended up splurging on good watercolors when i went out of town and like whyyyyy did i do that lol this is still just as impossible as it was with the cheap supplies
#I RLY DONT GET IT....it turns out hot press paper just does not make it look like anything at all but cold press is#too textured to get lines on#i see videos where ppl use a rly good amt of water (obvs) to the point where it sits on the page until it dries but both papers i have#(baohong and arches) either suck it all up immediately OR immediately buckle and warp as if i was painting on printer paper jesus christ#dont even get me started on um blending colors on paper bc that just does not happen#igts so crazy. + if i finally do get the paint onto the page after fighting then it doesn't even look like watercolor 😭#i want it to look like watercolor thats why i got them....#talkys#anyway i was abt to justify it with ''oh well if i didnt buy them i would have continued thinking about them forever so#that must mean something'' untrue 🫶 i got more lino supplies like a year ago and never used them.#i got gouache a few months ago and have not touched it.#although thats because I lack a creative nature bc i do like gouache...i jst dk what to make. in any medium
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